Chapitre 4

Towards the end of October, a young man, in a state of profound desperation, entered a gambling house in the Palais-Royal as it opened. He was met by a pale old man who brusquely demanded his hat, a symbolic act the narrator portrays as stripping one of self-possession. The young man’s worn hat and bewildered reaction suggested an innocent soul, yet the old man, a hardened embodiment of gambling's desolation, cast a cold eye, foreseeing ruin. The gambling hall itself was bleak, with worn furnishings and an air of quiet despair. Observing the diverse clientele – impassive old men, a fervent young Italian, detached spectators, and cunning speculators – the narrator distinguished the truly desperate morning gambler from those seeking mere distraction. The young man’s entry drew all eyes. His noble features, marked by a "horrible mystery," bore the pallor of suicide and a chilling resignation. Though elegantly dressed, his clothes showed signs of neglect, his hands were unclean, and he lacked gloves – all betraying a deeper misery, a "prince" of suffering. His appearance hinted at a struggle between youthful grace and the ravages of vice or relentless study, culminating in a more destructive passion. Without hesitation, the young man placed his last gold coin, a napoleon, on "Noir." The Italian, sensing an opportunity, bet against him. The moment hung in silence as the cards were dealt. The croupier announced "Rouge, pair, passe," signifying the young man's loss. His lips whitened, but he quickly regained composure, affecting an English indifference before silently departing, leaving even his hat behind. Outside, the croupier and regulars speculated he would drown himself. The young man, indeed, wandered towards the Tuileries Garden and the Pont Royal in a daze, contemplating suicide. He reflected on the tragic grandeur of voluntary death for a man of talent, lost amidst an indifferent populace. On the bridge, an old woman's jibe about the cold, dirty Seine momentarily startled him. Spotting a sign for "Aid for the Asphyxiated," he imagined the indignity of being revived and the public spectacle of his death, contrasting his fifty-franc value dead with his social insignificance alive. He resolved to die by night, preserving his anonymity from a society that had failed to acknowledge him. Continuing his walk along the Quai Voltaire, he feigned nonchalance. A flicker of hope ignited when he found three small coins in his pocket, only to be extinguished by the paltry sum. He distributed these last three sous to a young chimney sweep and an old beggar, who, recognizing a deeper despair than his own, fell silent. The mendicants, however, pledged prayers for his life. Shortly after, he exchanged a "piercing glance" with an elegantly dressed young woman descending from a carriage, a final, unacknowledged farewell to love. Overwhelmed, he sought refuge from his thoughts in an antique shop. The young assistant offered to show him more interesting items upstairs. Amidst a chaotic collection of ancient artifacts and stuffed animals – crocodiles, sphinxes, and relics from various eras – the young man found a strange solace. He absorbed this "immense pasture" for his poetic soul, resigning himself to silence and preparing for his final, terrible meditations as night approached.

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